8#[THE DIARY OF A SINNER- Season 5]

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Author’s note: I’d like to know what you guys think about the long episodes. Are they what you’ll enjoy reading? Or does the long texts make you sleepy and bored? Please be honest and open coz changes will be made to better suite your reading experience In-Sha-Allah. Enjoy!
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Habibati Sadeekun… (Beloved Friend)

Even though we got down to the more intense questions today, I actually felt more at ease and was comfortable with being myself. I won’t lie, as embarrassing and crazy as Tasneem can be, I don’t know how I could’ve went through this without her. I had a nap after Fajr and then woke up at about 8am and saw that she and Riaz had left a few notifications in the group after Fajr.

Tasneem: The wedding itself… Do you dream of a big fancy thing… Or ?
Tasneem: I will try and think of more questions but in the meantime, Sis Aafiyah… Hit Nusaybah with questions that you know your bro might be too shy to ask.
Riaz: Lol, I Personally Feel That All Further Questions Be Put On Hold Until Nusaybah Gives Her Opinion On ‘The Big Question’ Though, Whenever She’s Ready And Comfortable In Doing So, Wouldn’t That Be A More Appropriate Way To Approach The Progression Sister Tasneem?
Tasneem: Yep of course… Everyone can answer when ready. I’m just putting it out there coz I don’t know when I’ll be able to check in again. I ask maaf if I have overstepped with anyone of you. I hope this works out In-Sha-Allah if it is what is best.
Riaz: Understandable… Ameen.
Tasneem: Annnd I thought of another question… Since it’s such a big thing in our beautiful religion… Where do you both stand when it comes to Salaah?
Tasneem: Right! That’s all from me for now. Assalaamu Alaikum!
Riaz: Wa Alaikum Salaam.

I figured that Riaz hadn’t answered any of the other questions because he was probably stressing over what my answer would be to the previous question about how we would manage the whole distance thing if we did decide to get married.

Me: Alrighty… so I read and reread Riaz’st last big questions answer about 10 times now. I’m actually quite happy with it, although, I would just prefer a proper nikkah rather than a ‘skype nikkah’. As for Tasneem’s question about the wedding, I’ve always wanted a small wedding nothing big, nothing fancy. I feel it’s completely unislamic and wrong but of course I’m willing to sway a little bit. As for the salaah, I read all my namaaz always Alhumdulilah.
Riaz: Right, so, Namaaz-wise, same situation here as well Alhamdulillah, 5 daily since I was about 13. 
Riaz: Wedding, EXACT Same Feelings Here, Smallest, Most Halaal Way Possible, No Need To ‘Sway’ In Any Way There In-sha-Allah
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5#[THE DIARY OF A SINNER- Season 5]

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Habibati Sadeekun… (Beloved Friend)

When Mum took the phone from Raeesa and held it to her ear, I was expecting the worst. I thought this was it… Dad was finally fired. I looked at Mum with a blank expression on my face. All she kept saying was, “Ok… Uh huh… I see… Alright”. I was so anxious to know what was going on that I even started signing to mum while she was on the phone, she hates that! Usually she would yell at me to stop it and leave her alone coz she is on a call, but this time, she turned me around and sent me out the room, closing the door behind her.

I can’t stand all this uncertainty. On the one hand it’s dad’s job and on the other, it’s this whole marriage thing with… With… that ‘guy’?

I sighed and sat back down at my table, trying to finish my marking to get my mind off wanting to harass Tasneem and Mum for answers. My mind drifted off when I started thinking about how much of my life I spend marking and planning and teaching and marking some more. If you really think about it, teachers sacrifice their lives for the futures of their students, yet they are so unappreciated.

I quickly snapped out of my depressing thoughts when I heard my phone go all crazy on me. It was Tasneem.

Tas: Nusiiii
Tas: Wake up!
Tas: He replied!
Tas: I hope to God you aren’t sleeping!
Tas: I can’t contain my emotions right now!
Tas: Wake up woman!
Tas: NUSAYBAH!!!
Tas: DON’T MAKE ME COME THERE AND DRAG YOU OUT OF BED MYSELF!!!!

As silly as this sounds, Tasneem’s chats scare me sometimes. In real life she might be this sweet and innocent Apa, but over chat… Hmph… This chick is a GANGSTA!!! She WILL murder you with those exclamations and caps lock of hers…

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21#[THE DIARY OF A SINNER – Season 4]

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Habibi Sadeekun… (Beloved Friend)

I’m speechless, so totally speechless, she’s so beautiful, even more than the first time i laid eyes on her. I feel like I can’t breath when I look at her, and everything becomes a blur. It made every pothole on the journey here worth it!

I hadn’t slept much at all last night. I kept tossing and turning, trying to picture how this whole official proposal thing would play out. If it was going to go anything like it did with Naseerah, Umi would totally blow it.

Eventually I fell asleep around 2am but had to be up at 3:30. Surprisingly I woke up energised, refreshed and ready to go.

I tell you Sadeekun, meeting the future father-in-law makes you so nervous that you scrub places you never knew you had You know, just in case he checks! After a good scrub down, I changed into my gym clothes, read Salaah, then packed the car.

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21#[THE DIARY OF A SINNER – Season 4]

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Habibati Sadeekun… (Beloved Friend)

You’ll NEVER believe what happened! Dad gave me back my phone and told me that he’s giving it to me so that he can keep track of how far along the journey Sayfullah and his parents were. He knew it’d be silly if he phoned them every hour, asking where they are.

Under any circumstance, other than this one, I would’ve taken this opportunity to go through all my unread messages and catch up with life. But today, all I could think about was the house looking perfect and the food tasting amazing!

Since my list ticked off all the major cleaning chores, I needed to do basic daily cleaning today. In normal households that would be translated to “Spring Cleaning”. I planned out by time for the day so that everything would be spot on when they arrived. This was going to be my very first and only official Samoosa run!

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20#[THE DIARY OF A SINNER – Season 4]

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Habibati Sadeekun… (Beloved Friend)

I’m no doctor, but sometimes I suspect I have a slight case of OCD or OCPD (Obsessive–compulsive personality disorder) to be specific. As Wikipedia says it, although OCD and OCPD both may share outside similarities – rigid and ritual-like behaviors, for example: Hoarding, orderliness, and a need for symmetry and organization, attitudes toward these behaviors differ between people affected with either of the disorders. For people with OCD, these behaviors are unwanted and seen as unhealthy, being the product of anxiety, while for people with OCPD they are experienced as rational and desirable, being the result of, for example, a strong adherence to routines, a natural inclination towards cautiousness,
or a desire to achieve perfection – THAT’S ME!

I can’t stand the sound of metal clinking, so I wash the cutlery in single file. I hate when forks mix with spoons or knives with forks, so Aunty Jane makes very sure she packs them in the draw correctly or I’d leave my  food to reset the draw. I even can’t concentrate on the TV or listen to the radio if I know the volume isn’t set on any number that ends with either 5 or 0. I’d think about the volume the whole time and not know anything that just happened, until someone changes it from 39 to 40.

When my father told Sayfullah to bring his parents and come home, my heart jumped out of my body! I couldn’t believe it! It wasn’t even a minute later when 101 things ran through my mind on how to make the house perfect for when they arrive. So over the next 6 days, Dad would have to pay Aunty Jane overtime coz I needed the house to be in tip top shape for when they arrive. Scratch that… he’d have to pay me overtime! I wouldn’t be satisfied until I’ve done it myself.

“Keep this up and we’ll be marrying the house to someone else in no time.”, Mum said sarcastically, seeing me SCRUBBING the walls outside.

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