Soooooo sorry!!

السلام عليكم ورحمتالله وبركاته All you lovely readers…

I’m really so sorry for such a long wait! I know I’ve posted last over 2 months ago. Life has really been so hectic and I’ve also started working on another little project of mine that I’ve been waiting YEARS to start! Also lost my co-writer for the time being so hard to keep up… 

BTW… If anyone is interested in co-writing, just contact me. (click on the blue link above and you’ll be redirected to find my Whatsapp number – females ONLY welcome to use it!) 

I haven’t even got down to replying to youlls messages. I’m going to try and catch up soon, but I really appreciate each and every comment and like! 

Good news is that I’ve already written 75% of the next VERY LONG post…. Bad news is that i still have 25% to go… 

Will try and post soonest In-Sha-Allah!

P.S: if you don’t have instagram, you can get my details here.
Please please make me Maaf! You guys must be soooooo annoyed and irritated with me… 

Much Love 

-Admin Ebi 

22#[THE DIARY OF A SINNER – Season 4]

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Habibati Sadeekun… (Beloved Friend)

When Dad announced the sleeping arrangements, all I wanted to do was scream! How on earth could Dad allow this to happen?!

I could see on Sayfullah’s Mum’s face that she wasn’t too impressed with Dad. She looked just as stunned as I was. After all, even I assumed they’d sleep here.

But that wasn’t the worst part.

I shivered at the dreadful thought of knowing that my future in-laws would find out that they were living under the same roof as the people who would’ve been my in-laws 2 years ago. It’s the one thing I don’t need right now! It’ll ruin everything!

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21#[THE DIARY OF A SINNER – Season 4]

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Habibati Sadeekun… (Beloved Friend)

You’ll NEVER believe what happened! Dad gave me back my phone and told me that he’s giving it to me so that he can keep track of how far along the journey Sayfullah and his parents were. He knew it’d be silly if he phoned them every hour, asking where they are.

Under any circumstance, other than this one, I would’ve taken this opportunity to go through all my unread messages and catch up with life. But today, all I could think about was the house looking perfect and the food tasting amazing!

Since my list ticked off all the major cleaning chores, I needed to do basic daily cleaning today. In normal households that would be translated to “Spring Cleaning”. I planned out by time for the day so that everything would be spot on when they arrived. This was going to be my very first and only official Samoosa run!

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20#[THE DIARY OF A SINNER – Season 4]

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Habibati Sadeekun… (Beloved Friend)

I’m no doctor, but sometimes I suspect I have a slight case of OCD or OCPD (Obsessive–compulsive personality disorder) to be specific. As Wikipedia says it, although OCD and OCPD both may share outside similarities – rigid and ritual-like behaviors, for example: Hoarding, orderliness, and a need for symmetry and organization, attitudes toward these behaviors differ between people affected with either of the disorders. For people with OCD, these behaviors are unwanted and seen as unhealthy, being the product of anxiety, while for people with OCPD they are experienced as rational and desirable, being the result of, for example, a strong adherence to routines, a natural inclination towards cautiousness,
or a desire to achieve perfection – THAT’S ME!

I can’t stand the sound of metal clinking, so I wash the cutlery in single file. I hate when forks mix with spoons or knives with forks, so Aunty Jane makes very sure she packs them in the draw correctly or I’d leave my  food to reset the draw. I even can’t concentrate on the TV or listen to the radio if I know the volume isn’t set on any number that ends with either 5 or 0. I’d think about the volume the whole time and not know anything that just happened, until someone changes it from 39 to 40.

When my father told Sayfullah to bring his parents and come home, my heart jumped out of my body! I couldn’t believe it! It wasn’t even a minute later when 101 things ran through my mind on how to make the house perfect for when they arrive. So over the next 6 days, Dad would have to pay Aunty Jane overtime coz I needed the house to be in tip top shape for when they arrive. Scratch that… he’d have to pay me overtime! I wouldn’t be satisfied until I’ve done it myself.

“Keep this up and we’ll be marrying the house to someone else in no time.”, Mum said sarcastically, seeing me SCRUBBING the walls outside.

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19#[THE DIARY OF A SINNER – Season 4]

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Habibati Sadeekun… (Beloved Friend)

After Dadi and Dada reunited, it felt as if a dark cloud had been lifted off our family. I got to see Dad’s childlike side, something I thought I’d never see. Turned out that Dad thought all those letters were from someone pretending to be Dada in order to blackmail him, that’s why he got rid of them and told Kaka to do the same if ever he were to recieve any letter from that address.

Dadi used to give Mum such a hard time, Mum used to say that if Dada were still around Dadi would have her mind occupied and wouldn’t comment on EVERYTHING mum did. So you can imagine how excited Mum was to meet Dada. Seeing how happy my family was, I couldn’t help but feel sorry for Dada’s other wife and kids. They must’ve spent all their life watching Dada yearn for this. What if that made them feel like it was their fault? Or that they wern’t good enough? They were a part of our family too and I wanted them to know that. So I requested that on my birthday, we get the whole family together at our house, including my half uncles and their wives.

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18#[THE DIARY OF A SINNER – Season 4]

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Habibati Sadeekun… (Beloved Friend)

What was Gorifoi doing corresponding with dada?? And why was it so secret that she had to hide them this way?! I was stumped!!

The mystery got clearer when I read through the letters, and I could NOT believe my eyes at what I was reading. From the way Dada responded, it was as though Gorifoi had been replying to his mail. And what was even more confusing is that he sounded like a decent man! Not the monster daddy and them made him out to be. Gorifoi had given him another chance. I only read one letter before I remembered how I’d reacted to Razia evesdropping and hurriedly put the letters away.

I started packing my clothes in the suitcase, I wasn’t really a neat freak, but when it came to my luggage I was a teeny bit obsessive. “Salaam Nusaybah.”, Gorifoi said from behind me. I froze. “Wa alaykumsalaam.”, I answered. Willing myself not to attack her with my curiosity. “You ok?” She wanted to know when I turned around. “Yeah.” I frowned. “Why?” “You look a little weird, like you’re holding back.” She smiled. “Not having second thoughts about leaving are you?” I faked a smile back. “Not at all.” “Okay.” She sat on the edge of the bed. “Out with it! C’mon, what’s bugging you?” I stared at her. “Oh c’mon, I know your expressions pretty well by now.” She shrugged. I sighed. “Fine, so here’s the thing.” I started. “I found your letters to dada” Her face blanched of all colour. I could literally see how scared she was. “I only met him that once I promise!” She blurted out. I gasped. “You did what?” She groaned, “oh no.” “You met himmm??? When??” I screeched. “Shhhhhhhh.” She hushed me. “That night when I was trying out the new abaya. We had been mailing eachother for almost a year now and I decided I wanted to finally meet him again after all these years.”, her eyes lit up like a little kid who thinks they just met a superhero.
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17#[THE DIARY OF A SINNER – Season 4]

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Habibati Sadeekun… (Beloved Friend)

My heart was heavy but my step was light, I have wonderrrrrrful news for you… or for me actually. I’m going HOME!!!! Dad phoned last night, “I’ve heard that you’ve been behaving.”, he said in a yeah-i’m-sure-rolling-eyes kinda tone. “Hmm”, I replied, a little irritated by his disbelief. “Well… since your birthday is coming up, as a reward you’ll get to spend the day with us. I’ll be fetching you soon.”, daddy said, just making my week! It might just be for a few days, but I’m not going to look at the gift horse in the mouth. I’ll just close my eyes and hope for the best. Because as much as dadi and I had connected, I wasn’t anyones working horse, or better yet, donkey, yeah, that makes more sense.

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16#[THE DIARY OF A SINNER – Season 4]

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Habibati Sadeekun… (Beloved Friend)

“Your Dada didn’t die Nusaybah, your father and Kaka only lied because they were very very angry with him for what he did……..”

I was still in shock Sadeekun. Dadi’s words kept repeating itself in my mind. I couldn’t believe we had been lied to all our lives. I was freaking out! My mind ran in circles. I saw how much it hurt Dadi to tell me why he’d left. Her eyes had welled up with tears, and even after a decade, she looked heartbroken and a tiny bit confused.

Apparently, Dada had a penchant for charming the ladies. He was after all a very handsome man, even I could see that from the photo I’d seen of him, apart from the black and white picture and the weird looking clothes he had on. He looked like one of those actors from the oldies black and white movies where the sound was awful and lots of over dramatising.

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15#[THE DIARY OF A SINNER – Season 4]

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Habibati Sadeekun… (Beloved Friend)

Today was very challenging, but I told myself to be strong and not let anything get me down.After cleaning from one end to the other TWICE coza how messy these kids are, I was exhausted! Believe me, there’s nothing that can make you more emotional than seeing fresh mud footprints on the sparkling clean floor just after you’ve mopped with a spaghetti mop, but still I was determined to not show any signs of weakness.

When I was done, I went to the kitchen to start preping to cook, I started by grating a whole bunch of tomatoes. Apparantly, when they were in season, they were much cheaper, and so it was sensible to buy like a whole years supply and store them away in the freezer for future use. Eyh Sadeekun, don’t ask me why just paying a few more bucks for fresh ones isn’t worth it. My hands were frozen numb the minute I started grating the first one! By the time I was halfway my hands had pins and needles and itched like crazy even though I left the tomatoes out to  defrost.

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14#[THE DIARY OF A SINNER – Season 4]

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Habibati Sadeekun… (Beloved Friend)

Oh I’m soooooooo angry right now Sadeekun, I’m sure if you were a real person you’d say I was having a hissy fit! Men are so HOPELESS!!! They never ever get it.

I fiiiinally managed to make a plan to call Sayf! I pretended to be talking to Mum but dialled Sayf’s number. Instead of giving me good news, he gave me the worssssst!!! Apparantly, he’s being transferred closer to my home town, and he thought he was doing me a favour. He’ll ruin everything!! Here I am slaving away for him, like literally, and all he does is make things more tough for me. Makes me wonder if it’s all worth it! And his parting shot was, I MET SAMEER!! Like…OMG… I shudder just thinking about what they must have talked about. I didn’t even get a chance to get into the details of where he met Sameer and why the hell he tought it was any of his business to go  up to him!

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