17#[THE DIARY OF A SINNER- Season 2]

{A CIIYF Production}

Habibi Sadeekun… (Beloved Friend)

I am so furious!!!!!!!!

So mentally & emotionally distraught!!!!!

As I walked into the yard and closed the gate behind me, I heard screams that will play in my head forever! I’ll never forget it…

“I just wish I could vanish forever. Far away from these people, far away from my cursed existence, far away from everything!!! Keep getting forced into doing things. What the hell am I??? Some sort of spare tool that can be tossed between them whenever they want???!!! I am USED and ABUSED. I HATE being amongst the living!!! I want to be away from all of this! FAR AWAY! Just can’t do this anymore… Cannot do any of this anymore!”, the screams became more intense.

It was Aneesa’s voice. She was supposed to be at school…

As I unlocked the front door my breathing intensified and my heart pounded. Something was definitely wrong. I ran to her room, but she was nowhere in sight. “Aneesa, ANEESA!” I yelled frantically. There was no response.

I heard something fall in the lounge so I darted there faster than Usain Bolt in peak form.

“Anee__”, my brain froze and knees quivered.

She was lying in a pool of blood, with a knife in her hand. I almost gagged, her face looked pale… like she’d been crying for a long while and her wrists were covered in blood. Was this why Aneesa had been acting faulty all this time? Was I too blind to see the pain she was going through?!

I kneeled and felt her pulse, she was still breathing.

Who do I call?! How was I going to tell Mamoo and Maami, that their child was at the verge of dying. I should’ve come home earlier! I was done with lectures three hours ago, I only stayed on campus because I was getting thunnie lessons.

“Aneesa… I’m sorry! I’m so sorry!”, was all that could escape my mouth as my shaking hands reached for a phone. I felt so guilty for being so nasty towards her for the past few days.

I dialed 911 and waited for someone, anyone to answer… I prayed with all my heart that they could get an ambulance here in time. “WHY DID YOU DO THIS!”, I yelled, feeling for a pulse to make sure she’s still with me. I can’t explain the hate I had for the person responsible for this. My eyes were beginning to blur up…

As my call connected, I heard a fit of laughter behind me. Before I could turn around I heard giggles from either side of the lounge.

What the?! Aneesa sat up and pointed the knife at me.

“Gotcha”, she teased. “Serves you right for messing up our rehearsal”, she said with a smirk on her face. Her friends who were giggling like a gaggle of geese, came out from behind the curtains. They were rehearsing for their school’s annual drama festival.

I clenched my fists, if Umi didn’t teach me not to hit girls, they would’ve been zombies by now!

I didn’t speak to anyone for the rest of the evening, my mind is still perturbed. May Allah Ta’ala make it easy for all those who lose loved ones through suicide.

I’m grateful Sadeekun, grateful that it was all just an act. But I’ll never forget the feeling that went through me. It will haunt me forever.


>>>Do You thInk He WaS RiGht In BlAmInG hImSelf For BeinG LatE? If You KnOw SomEonE Who IS HavINg A TouGh TimE, LenD An Ear oR A ShouLdEr To CrY ON. Don’T BE NastY ToWArDs AnyONe BecAuSe You NevEr kNoW, You MiGhT JuSt Be ThE OnE To puSH tHem oVeR tHe EdGE!!

It is narrated on the authority of Abu Huraira(R.A) that the Messenger of Allah (May Peace Be Upon Him) observed: He who killed himself with steel (weapon) would be the eternal denizen of the Fire of Hell and he would have that weapon in his hand and would be thrusting that in his stomach forever and ever, he who drank poison and killed himself would sip that in the Fire of Hell where he is doomed forever and ever; and he who killed himself by falling from (the top of) a mountain would constantly fall in the Fire of Hell and would live there forever and ever.

Life is precious, take each day as it comes. Remember that the answer to all of your problems lies in the Hands of The Almighty. He reserves the toughest battles for His strongest soldiers.

So heal a soul, touch a heart…And Be A True Soldier Of The Almighty.

StaY TunNEd UntIl ThE NeXt EpISoDe Of SayFuLLAh’s DiarY<<<


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